Ah, jeez..

Hi. I'm back again.

I know this isn't the ranting blog, but I felt like ranting after months of no update...(Was it a year already? IDK)

Anyway, yesterday the weather was so depressing...I went to school, blanked out through most of my classes except for history 'cause you can't blank out in history. Sat at the back, there were empty spaces at the front and I got called up front. But it wasn't just me so I'm okay.

Now what does this have to do with manga?

I've been working on chibi lately. And I drew a chibi hopping through a puddle. Thing is, she looked really mature rather than bright. And she looked pretty depressed. (Guess why, right?)

I'm so tired today, writing this at school. I mean I got eight hours of full sleep, but I'm still kinda out of it. We're watching Easy A in class, which somehow managed to depress me even more. Oh well, you can't have life without being depressed once, right?

Anyway, please don't hate me for a post like this. I'm so lame. But this week, I've been so out of it. My drawings are getting worse...I wish I had a scanner or something. I've been drawing, yeah, but for a career, I don't think it's enough. Guys are so hard to draw...T.T

My hands are getting better, though. I can actually draw a hand gripping something. I'd scan it up, with my phone or something at the least but this stupid netbook refuses to say okay I'll accept this new hardware. I'm so tired and depressed right now..I keep telling myself that Thanksgiving break is coming up very soon..but I don't know if I can get through this week.

Guys and oldies...They're the hardest. Actually, that's a lie. Well, I've never drawn an old person before and all the guys I drew (just one or two faces, I promise) all end up looking like girls. Except for one. I drew one, profile view, in the sideline of my writing notebook, but his arms ended up looking like a freaking potato.

Depressing, ain't it? What's wrong with me?? I'm getting enough sleep but I'm not getting anywhere...

Wow. I guess I'm getting way too emo. I doubt I'm going to kill myself soon though...